The follow up to No One Told Me It Would Be This Hard: Part I . . .
The day of the induction and delivery of my baby was not at all what I thought it would be like. I had Pitocin administered through an IV at 6:00am the next day and by 11:00am my water broke and all hell broke loose in my body. I went from feeling like I could handle labor and the level of pain I was experiencing to having my husband and Doula take turns jamming their fists into my back. I was one of the unfortunate women who have posterior babies (the baby’s skull is in the back of the pelvis). It was the most incredible back pain I have ever experienced and I needed the counter pressure of their fists to get through each contraction. Once I reached 8 centimeters I asked for something to slow the contractions down and give me a break! They gave me a small amount of pain medication but it didn’t do much to help me. I eventually got to 10 centimeters and started pushing. Everyone kept telling me to grab my legs and thought to myself, they want ME to grab my legs?
I am normally very modest and well-mannered but at this point I didn’t care what was showing or coming out of me, and I was swearing like a sailor. I always hear women say that they are nervous they might poop. When you reach the point of no return, you don’t care what is going on, you just want that baby out of you. I was placed in all kinds of squatting positions and nothing worked. Two hours later, my bladder was swelling and there was no head in sight. I was in a lot of pain and the decision was made to have a C-section before it turned into an emergency C-section. It was the worst case scenario for me, but I knew I didn’t have a choice. I had a spinal block/epidural and by 6:41pm, I had a baby. It wasn’t what I envisioned but I had a healthy baby and eventually came to terms with the outcome. Many women experience a range of emotions and go through a grieving process when they have an undesirable birth experience. Information and resources for women who have had cesareans can be found at the International Cesarean Awareness Network.



